It's 3:45 am. I'm not sure that I can get back to sleep... I've been trying for an hour.
Today is the day! In a few hours I will be going to hospital to have a bilateral mastectomy. Eeek! I don't know, I think I'm okay with it at this point.
Very frustrated with how thirsty I am considering I'm not allowed to drink or eat past midnight.
I got marked yesterday by the plastic surgeon. A giant geometric pattern covering my chest. We have to retrace it after each shower.
The shower stuff is weird. Very sterile smelling. But it left my skin surprisingly soft!
The injections of radioactive stuff for the lymph node biopsy went well. It was far more pleasant than I expected it to be. 4 shots in each breast, the first two in each being lydocane to numb it. Then 2 of the 4 radioactive injections burned a little but faded quickly. Then I just had to lay in the giant imaging device for 30 minutes or so. Then they took me out and used a handheld singing radiation detector to find the one sentinel lymph node on each side. Then they drew on me on covered their markings with tape. Viola!
I want to say thank you to all my friends and family who have been so supporting through all of this and demonstrated so much care for me. I appreciate you and love you.
Wish me luck!
You get more than luck, you get love, peace, and wholeness. Thinking of you today (and every day), and thank you for sharing your story. I look forward to hearing great news all around, and may your recovery be as easy and effortless as possible.
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Steph
You are in my thoughts and prayers this day. I am so grateful for you and so proud of you! What an amazing young woman you have become. I am so impressed by your courage and your calmness in the face of this. You are a great example to me, I love you and appreciate you more than you will ever know. My wish for you is that you heal with the speed of light and you will have peace, comfort and a really long life full of joy!
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Deanna
Wishing you the speediest recovery ever. You are in my thoughts and prayers this day and always. I am so proud of you and the amazing young woman that you have become. What a great blessing you are to all around you. Thanks for sharing this with me.
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Deanna
You'll do great sweetie! I know you're surgery is over now...it's all downhill from here! :) Best wishes for a speedy and unevenful recovery. ((gentle hugs))
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